Another post about acne asdkfhjalksd it’s the worst
I’ve been pretty emotional lately…so let’s write a long post…
I don’t have acne anymore, but you know what I still have? Acne scars and the awful memories of how low I felt when I had acne. Sometimes, I look at old pictures of when I had super clear, flawless skin and it’s hard for me to believe that I was ever at that phase. It’s hard to explain just how terrible, sad and degrading it is to have very bad acne. Those who have never experienced it would probably think “Yeah, I get it. It sucks. It’s upsetting to get a pimple, let alone have them all over your face.” But it’s much worse than that.
I saw a girl on the bus today who had acne all over her face just like how i use to, which threw me back to summer 2012 when my face just decided to explode in acne. Allow me to tell you what it’s like to have acne: You blow off your money to buy and try every existing product out there, no matter how much effort or money it took to get it. You go to sleep at night in hopes of good results but every morning, you’re left in disappointment because your face is either flooded as ever with acne or your acne has gotten worse, and throughout the day, it’s ALL you think about. It’s on your mind when you shower, go to class, eat, hang out with your friends etc. It consumes your thoughts. You see people look at your acne, not you. You don’t even want to talk to other people because you always catch them looking at your acne. People complain about one zit, and you just want to punch them in the face because they don’t realize how good they have it. You don’t even want to leave the house because you feel so ugly. And because of that, you just stay home crying because none of your efforts have worked to get rid of this acne and you reiterate the belief that you are ugly. There are just so many nights spent crying.
It sounds materialistic because I sound obsessed with the way I look with acne, but as I said, you have to experience it to really know how it feels. I’m glad to be out of that phase, but I strongly empathize with those still suffering from acne. It’s the worst. You think they are mere blemishes that will go away after your teen years, but in actuality, they are what diminishes your last bit self-confidence. I’ve used many products: Neutrogena, Clean&Clear, St. Ives, Proactiv, Murad, Clinique, Biore, Differin, BenzaClin, Solodyn, Epiduo and kojic acid soap. I think back and it’s crazy how many things I’ve slabbed on my face in hopes that it’ll clear my acne. I even contemplated about going on Accutane, but I talked to Andy and she said it clears your skin, but the side effects aren’t worth it. So finally, I found Acne.org’s The Regimen and the drugstore products I’ve used with it were Cetaphil’s Gentle Skin Cleanser, benzoyl peroxide by OXY, and moisturizing skin cream by walgreens. This regimen has been a lifesaver so if you, or anyone you know, have stubborn acne, I’d definitely recommend this. Just go to the website though, because the instructions are very precise. If that doesn’t work, I hope you, and the girl I saw on the bus today, can find the product that works for you! Everyone should be able to indulge on the exhilarating feeling that comes with having clear skin. Good luck!
Why did I just write all this. Oh yeah, because acne sucks.